I have decided...

This feeling is too much to bear...
I know it is hard...
But I just have to try...
I know I should not have it in the first place...
I know I should not let myself fall...
I know I should have controlled myself...
But it just happened...
Silly I guess but it is true...
Come to think about it...
I have gone this far...
But why... why must I stop?
Why must I give up?
I guess...
There is no point of holding onto something...
Something that I will never get...
Something that is just too far away from me...
So... I think...
It is better for me to forget...
To forget your voice...
To forget your smile...
To forget everything about you...
Please don't ask me why...
Because I have decided...